Flow & Ebb of Life

I seem to be on a journey inwards that is urging me to merge with the universal divinity. I am seeking the stillness and the silence that I know is in me and out there which is the same. I want this wave called this lifetime as ME to disburse into the the universal ocean. I want to rest and I want to rise again as another wave when I am fully ready to spread universal love, universal peace. I want to be the messenger who can make the individual pain heal as the wave of my life washes over what needs to be healed. Surrendering this deep desire to the universal wisdom.