Redefining Autism 3

We create our own life experiences by our thoughts. 

So the question that weaved into the corners of my mind was then why would our autistics choose this life experience? 

Then I heard a story-incident that gave me the key to understanding these life choices that we were all making including my autistic mates. 

"I lost my gold cross pen and spent days searching for it in all the places. People who know me well know that I love writing and I love to write with special writing instruments. I could not find it. 

I became angry, then sad and then weary of my search. The gold pen slowly faded away from experience and I went on with my life. 

One day as I sat at my table writing a cheque I opened the draw only to find the gleaming gold!" 

I took the pen with me to school that day and showed it to each of the children. I dint have to explain but they knew. They laughed and touched the pen, some touched my cheek. They were happy for me. 

But still I had no clue how the pen came to be where I had looked a hundred times before. 

So I silenced my mind and sought answers from my child-masters. Literally like the bulb that burns bright on top of a thinking person's head in cartoons I could feel a bulb go on inside my head! 

I heard the ideas come into me as a knowing and remembering of the following: 

❤️ I had let go of the pen totally. No attachment. No emotion about it. No memory even. I was free from the burden of carrying the thought of the pen. 

❤️ I was in a completely relaxed loving state when the pen came back into my experience. 

These was the ideas that occurred to me as I sat in silent contemplation with the children. 

I could find the pen only when I was totally relaxed, let go off all burdensome thoughts and the most important idea was that I was in the place where the pen was. 

I applied this to my life. I learnt that I had to be a "cool dude", an "irresponsible joyster" and to be at the right place at the right time for me to "receive" what I needed. 

What a lesson! I love my children who showed me where the answers were... Right within me! 

This I realised is the path least resistance for me! 

More to come...

Nandini