What a great title for a chapter in my book of life!
My path has taken me to many many teachers... some are humans, some are "dead people", some are my autistic children, some are words that meet me when I need them... in fact all my teachers have appeared on my path when I needed them....or should I say, when I listened! Yes...that is it! I listened and I heard!
I listened to Sister Lang Nghiem talk about this last night. What a paradox... it is only when we accept ourselves as we are can we find the path to transformation!
I heard her say - relaxation is self-acceptance! Isn't that true! We run and run around either in our minds or in our bodies, meandering unconsciously searching for something, something to inspire us, something that will heal us, something that will comfort us! Well... what we are searching for has been within our grasp all along.
I have been searching for someone to approve of me.... when all along I had not really approved of myself. Do I consider myself a value to myself? It appears that I had not till now. I have tried to ask for others to value me... many have done by themselves, but from those I specifically asked for approval, many have turned their heads and did not value me.
Both these sets of people, who valued me easily and those who did not are my teachers.... They are teaching me that the approval I am seeking is the approval I need to feel for myself. I need to be my own biggest and only fan.
Much has shifted in me! Let me see where this leads me next on my path....
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